Sunday, February 14, 2010
Just Some Story... :)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Olympics

There is something strikingly momentous and breathtakingly unbelievable about the Olympics. It is the only thing that has ever brought this entire world together in peace. How could something like this ever be done? I have no idea. But as I watch the opening ceremony I can't help but get chills. Thank God for the Olympics.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Novelty vs. Predictability
So what's next? I ask myself this question everyday. I wake up to a new day but it always feels the same. I am ready for an entire new book but have yet to move on to a new chapter. Where does this leave me? I feel lost in translation somehow. I have so many aspirations, so many dreams. So many things pull me down to what I have become. When I was younger it used to be so easy...I would wake up every day with a new schedule or a new adventure, it didn't even need to be planned. I want to be novelty. I guess I don't know what the word means anymore. Here I am at a school that I hate, I almost feel as if school is not for me at all. I don't even know who I am anymore, I am just a mold of something that society has made me. So I claim to be an individual. What does it mean to be an "individual" in this day and age?
Is it rude to say that i could use some new friends in my life, people who will take me places. Maybe this new friend I speak of is really myself... I need a new self? Well that just sounds ridiculous. I think what I am really striving for is to be less predictable. Breckenridge, Colorado here I come! Is that crazy enough? Is that distinguishable? Here I have grown up in a town that I couldn't wait to get out of and now that I am gone I find myself counting down the days until I get to go home. Traverse City, you never let me down... I find my old self, the self I really miss, there. Maybe I shouldn't go so far away. But maybe I still need to find that place I set out to find. Maybe there is a different place where I can find myself a new. Until then I'll confide in some good music, a good read, or a good friend.
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"Close my eyes. Open my eyes.
Slow to rise. Morning sighs.
Another day calls my name.
But I'd rather stay sleeping, keep dreaming.
Because it's hard enough falling asleep with all these thoughts in my mind.
Can't stop wishing, living for another time.
Sleep, wake.
Dreams don't come easily.
Because I'm always dreaming, probably.
Shake, awake.
Finding refuge hard to take.
So I lie awake.
Close my mouth. Open my mouth.
What I want to say never seems to come out.
My mind keep racing, the people in need are not worth saving?
Who is left to speak for them?. surely not these pieces of paper, letters written, sighned petitions.
Sleep, wake.
Dreams don't come easily.
Because I'm always dreaming, probably.
Shake, awake.
Finding refuge hard to take.
So I lie awake.
What is there to do when your closest friends don't even have time for you?
When days go by... Hear the children far away cry.
No one is there to save them
But you've got some money and you're saving.
If your own life just does not suffice, you can always make someone elses.
Maybe then you can fall asleep, someone elses soul you keep.
So far away from the busy world, through their life you feel concoled.
Give a lot to gain even more.
How can some not agree with that way of thinking?
They'll never get more since they don't see the joy in giving.
Sleep, wake.
Dreams don't come easily.
Because I'm always dreaming, probably.
Shake, awake.
Finding refuge hard to take.
So I lie awake."
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So I can't be a kid forever; but who decides that for me?
I'm done saying I'm going to change I'm going to take responsibility.
But even if I wasn't willing, the choice is not up to me.
Every second I get older, but the worlds not spinning any slower.
I know i can't be seventeen forever, but if i could I'd like to stay here a while longer.
I'm not yet ready for this change.
Though I guess everything else stays the same just give that number known as age a new name.
Give me a breath in and when I exhale I'll be the same person, letting go of and gaining some burdens.
So I'll take responsibility, just don't add more years to me.
Telling myself that I'm still very young. And it hits me, i realize, that truly my life has just begun.
Every second I get older, but the worlds not spinning any slower.
I know i can't be seventeen forever, but if i could I'd like to stay here a while longer.
I'm not yet ready for this change.
Though I guess everything else stays the same just give that number known as age a new name.
So I can sign my own papers now. Take the blame for it all.
Maybe it's natural to be scared of this step, probably because there's no turning back.
Going to take what I've learned, show the whole world it's my turn to find the adult that's been growing within me.
Soon I'll find out just what exactly that means.