i shot the serif.

my fingertips are spies

pressing keys

letting others read what's on my mind.

a status, a wall

what does this all even mean

nothing, i care nothing about whats going on in this person's life

but yet i am stuck meandering these pixels on screens

that microscopically compose letters forming words describing interests and activities

interesting, i find it, that she could sit for hours

staring mindlessly at those same meaningless pixels i find myself staring at now

the same pixels that form the end stroke of a letter which allows us to read these words clearly

they project out stabbing our eyes, blinding us from knowledge

as our fingertips, once more, betray our attempts to avoid procrastination

so i shot the serif, but i swear it was in self-defense.

The Questioner.

I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner.

There are things that are factual, basic common sense type definitions to the relationships in our lives. I can define them, I can prove that they exist, but for some reason we (well at least I) can't control them. maybe I never will...

I can define them:

I. Friendship

There are distinctions of friendship:

Voluntariness. we freely choose who we spend the most time with.

Equality. most friends are considered our social equals.

Assistance. we tend to develop friendships with people who are close to us.

Actively Sharing. we develop friendships with people who share in the same activities as us.

Confidentiality and Emotional Support. at times we need someone who will listen to our problems and successes, someone who will not divulge our secrets and someone who will support us no matter what.

II. Stages of Relationships

how people come together:

Initiating: interacting and deciding whether or not we like or dislike someone, as we ourselves try to portray ourselves as someone likable and friendly.

Experimenting: small talk, joint activity

Intensifying: stating mutual likeness or affection

Integrating: joining lives

how relationships can fall apart...

Differentiating: becoming different in character

Circumscribing: conversation becomes more about quantity than quality

Stagnating: instead of working through problems, we settle.

Avoiding: needing to be away from the other person

Terminating: ending all forms of communication

I can prove that they exist:

We have all had relationships in the past that did not last, and may have more relationships that don't last. It's not a difficult, or obscure thing. We don't even need to look in textbooks to prove their existence.

I can NOT control them.

For someone who questions everything, the only question that I can think to ask about this reality is:

WHY?

I have known someone before, but I lost them. They slipped through my hands like water, or grains of sand, or simply passed by like air. And like air, I can not exist where they are present. As changing as the tides, they are. But I am not one to speak, I wouldn't know... I don't know them. I knew them once, but times change along with the people in them. I myself have changed, but that is a different story for a different time.

I am here to ask unanswerable questions: Is there a probable cause to things such as this? Thomas Aquinas would argue so. Maybe it can be proved logical, it's something like religion. Nothing can exist before itself. Everything has a first mover. In this case I argue that person to be you. You are the one who took the first step. Now there's no turning back...

I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner. I am the questioner.